So i went back to NIE today to collect my graduation gown. I actually didn’t want to attend the investiture ceremony, because i think it’s all a show and it’s meaningless. But the principal in my school told me to go or otherwise she will need to give an explanation to MOE.

Went in the morning, the process was swift and smooth…got my gown within minutes and headed to the canteen. Missed the tea from the canteen though it sucks (looks and probably tastes like drain water), each sip brings back memories of the times i had drinking the tea in the morning with the usual early birds, ryan and adrian….and also the breaks between lessons where i needed the tea to perk me up for the rest of the day.

After the late breakfast, went to visit some of my lecturers. Ironically, no one was around except for my supervisor during Teaching practice. So went in and had a chat with him. Had only planned to chat for 15mins..but who knows…time passes so quick…chatted for 1hour plus instead.

 Talked about lots of stuffs…like the system in NIE, the available options and survival skills in school. Well, it was a rejuvenating chat i must say. Perhaps the situation im in now is really a blessing in disguise, i really feel so….i never wanted the crossover when i first entered NIE but somehow i got sucked into due to the influence and all the talk about it. My intention was always to go overseas. So sometimes i wondered why am i so bothered about not crossing over. Perhaps it’s because there’s a notion that my hard work wasn’t recognised. Well, maybe not to some ppl and on paper. Or maybe i knew i could have gotten the opportunity and thus had the luxury to openly and proudly reject it if not for a plagiarism mistake. So thus when i didn’t get it i feel really remorseful, and perhaps getting the crossover became like a second chance.

Anyway, it’s really a challenge from someone, something called Life….it’s really watching every moment. I’m also glad that this lecturer of mine gave me the assurance that i have the capability and he trust me to do well in the future. And i agree with him that i really need to open up my horizon. Going back to the same place, under the same system, seeing the same faces and hearing the same thing might really be detrimental to me instead. The brain is really something that ppl work on….we are shaped by the environment and our brain gets influenced by other ppl and culture…..

Lastly, this won’t get me down…cos i’ve always been a fighter…..